Star Chart

Eulogy No. 1

Fri, 25 Apr 2003 21:54:32 GMT

For a world now dead
I offer a solitary rose
A minor token
A guesture made at the tomb
This is not a rose of romance
Or a rose of clearly communicated emotion
My rose is one of vulgar symbolism

This world went through it's cycles
Totally unable to control it's evolution
And thus in fruitition we are left
With a single rose
The draw of it's atar
Photosynthesis and natural defenses
Thorns and leaves
All build up to the moment
The subconscious masculine stamen
And the preconscious feminine pistil
All culminate in the end of it's life

It's purpose served
Now it has little use
Aside from graveside sentimentality

But keep in mind
This is a rose of vulgar symbolism

Much like the deceased it honors
It's very purpose was to die
Not to cling to what can't be helped
Or to harbor bitterness or remorse
But to carry on the best of it's remains
The seed, the galactic star
The neverending cycle of death and rebirth

Such a vulgar offering
For a world now dead

Protagonist

Fri, 25 Apr 2003 21:54:11 GMT

Chrysalis!
A prison of rebirth
Chrysalis!
Uncanny canny restriction
Nostradamus!
Cassandra!
One called liar, one called prophet
Universal algebraic calculations
Scrolled upon us all
Various meaningless characters and
Imaginary numbers
Boomerang, chrysalis
The Universe expanding
Spreading thinner, thinner
Luciel, Israfil, Ariel!
Byzantium, so foolish!
Constructed glass and brass
A little heat and little sound
1000 years are gone
Medical black magic
Miraculous spiral of elimination
Seek to abuse the abusive
Force-fed panacea
Chrysalis
Ruin ruin ruin
Chrysalis
Blasphemy, die die die
Oh my chrysalis
BREAKDOWN

Contemplation

Thu, 24 Apr 2003 05:18:31 GMT

I lay still, waiting for his seldom-heard laughter
I glean just enough satisfaction out of that
It alleviates pressure on both ends

No one really understands him
And this magnifies the appeal-
Every idiosyncracy, strength, weakness
I alone am the one to claim them

To glamourize being misunderstood is a mistake only children make.
He and I know what it's like
And his secret spots are for my eyes only

Several shorts poems (Themes for a Circle)

Sun, 30 Mar 2003 02:13:30 GMT

Attack position, hallucination
Attack position, this sacred disease
Times I need
Things I need
Everything swirling away

Quicksilver rising
Farenheit rising
My hell inferno
Attack addiction
Red and blue heat conditions
Green and yellow
memories
Eyes staring back at me

"Aaaah", I moan
"Aaaah", I scream

Oh the times I need
Things I need
Eaten up like lotuses
"Take take take take me
Take me take me"
Fever induced madness
Perpetual Self Slavery
I'm free

Star charts, sea charts
Shimmer in the air
12 gods
12 stars
9 of them are real
The calculation impossible
The salvation improbable

Fortune cards, tarot cards
Absolute Syzygy
Half heart, third minds
Third ghost, half god
Inexplicable Syzygy

Good luck, bad luck
Blessing hex curse!
Syzygy! Absolute Birth!

Princely Ganymede
Taken by surprise
He now has a chance
Strike out in wrath
And with that, Hera falls

Cradle Earth, Catacomb Earth
My mother's womb, my final foe
Tremble in the presence of Saturn
Reaping sickle shine

Dark symbols in the mirror sea
National symbol upon the throne
Personal symbol upon the throat
Fallen symbol on the Earth
As in Imperial Days

Earth has the light, stolen away
Aaah, Jericho
It can fall through focus
Pluto calls for attention
My personal crest bestowed
To satisfy it's jealous nature

The absolute destiny of an emperor is....

Deactivation, reactivation
Thunderheads surround the warm Sol
Summon up miserable rain
Deactivation emotion running cold

My self submits to aggression
Sharp and guided pressure
Janus announces his rebirth
Janus announces my own funeral

My coffin moves
Turned heads don't see it
Why is my death unsightly?

Pleasant scents overcome
Rains pound eternally
A tear-choked voice pleads to me
The spell fades
My strong tinderbox ignites me
And Janus is defeated

Creature of the air
Creation of the Fourth Day
Forest-dwelling Adam
Malcontent lord of paradise

The safety of Eden
Is the abuse of God
My own flesh
My own blood
My accidental sin

Gluttonous Eve devours the dark fruit
Victim of serpentine tricks
Exposed am I
Exposed am I
Exposed am I

What love attacks my weakness?
This red cord so tight
Sword of fire threatening
I am pulled under
Innocent Eden is lost

Every bland face in the mirror
Blank template for seduction
Imaginary good things
Called to life
Beauty calls those from the shadow

My mother's mirror
My sister's jewels
Daughters of Helen
Daughters of Eve
Mistress of self torture

My grandmother's pearls
Stunning is the illusion
The most convincing grey magic
The power to fake revolution
My musicbox secret!
How I long for it!

Diana
Venus
Juno
The dilemma of Paris
Death of a nation
One woman's power
My darkest secret
I must hide it!

A boy's portrait done in red
It's meaning eludes me
It's colors confuse me
Stirring up persona I want to claim

Planet Earth is a museum
High level art dungeon
Exists for those who seek to use it
Any color you seek
Become, become, become!
Each galleria original
I must capture those expressions

A summoner's occupation is hazardous
But rewarding
Emulation elimination
My own color surpassed
"We are the same!"
"I will take all you have!"
An immaculate copy!
Missing nothing known to man
Can't you see?
He and I are one!

Aside from being beautiful
This sea is a harsh place
A bigger fish eats you
And your cells go on in him
Welcome arms in the abyss

The shark, so strong and stunning
The whale, so unmovably gentle
Characteristic powers
Held by everyone

If you cling to them, you can avoid it
Use them for safety
Fragrant scraps of life
Dropped to be eaten
Siphoned by remora

Remora, remora
Travels with the strong
Remora, remora
The harmless fiance

Shadow-dwelling child
Dependant entity
Feeding on decay
Remora, remora
Have you no honor?

Dolphin

Mon, 18 Nov 2002 01:24:22 GMT

Dare I challenge what's real
Might I change what we feel
Fear I've lost my appeal
Do you doubt I'm sincere?

And waves of them are crashing
Sending the will of the sea
Are hopes of yours now dashing?
To find I can't dive so deep?

Might I call what I sense
Am I wrong to be tense
And with everything hence
Will I hang in suspense?

Locked deep in your abyss
Is where I want to be
But sometimes I do miss
The air above the sea

It's cold and I am blinded
Come up with me
Come up with me
I need the air
I need the breeze
I fear I am imploding
Come up with me
Where we can breathe
Come up with me

Gaia

Thu, 03 Oct 2002 00:10:53 GMT

With a self satisfied grin
Take take take take
and there's nothing wrong
Look good
lay down
That's how it goes
Just do what you want
It's your world now
Beat back your host
Make him what you want
We all pay for the sins of our fathers
But we are daughters of Eve
No one pays for the sins of a mother
So walk and accuse
Bear your blow-up cross
And whine about the injustice
That happened to someone else
You deserve what you want
And not what you get
But you deserve what you get
Karma is fair, karma is kind
All those beatings
and the manipulation
You get used, abused,
Tossed aside for someone younger
Thinner
Prettier
You deserve this
You fought free of protection
And your bill is here
Someone owes for Eve's sins
You've got the feelings
So pay in full

Trojan Horse

Mon, 09 Sep 2002 19:26:39 GMT

Rush ahead and take me
You know I'll be left standing
Go ahead, this shot's free
Don't be too disappointed

Don't break your fist
Breaking my heart
I'll warn you
Alchemy won't change me
Don't waste your time
Sucking up air
I'm totally unmoving

Brush it off, I dare you
Pretend it didn't hurt
You don't have the strength to
Keep a ruse up long

Silver clash steel
And break apart
Don't forge your steel
Girding your heart
You can't break me
You can't break me
Rush and take me
I'm going to break you
I'm going to break you

No Will, No Karma

Fri, 06 Sep 2002 00:00:07 GMT

What do you want
Romance, or some shallow tail?
Why are you here?
Alone more than you can bear?

What do you want?
Me or my personality?
How does that work?
Running my soul through anybody?
And you think that's all okay?
And you think I'll just stay?

Tear me up
Hate, love, dependancy
I deal you what you need
Strap me down
Hunt for what you need
I can help you bleed
In my face
You get off scott free
Project, disect me

What do you need?
Somebody to pin the blame?
What is it now?
Need someone to share your pain?
Tear me up
You know me anyway
Break me down
You know me anyway

Constellation

Wed, 28 Aug 2002 05:13:49 GMT

Close your eyes on earth
And wake up on a hill
Seeking out perfection
Idealism's had it's fill

Holding up the galaxy
Never is a simple task

Shoulder it and be the god
Heaven's built on boys and war
Bite your lip and take it on
Hell is paved with whelps and whores

Calculate the stars
Progenate the wind
Firebrand your weakness
And gather all within

Arch a brow with devil eyes
Voids give in with just a stare
Not everyone is worthy
War and chance is always fair
Shoulder it and be the god
Heaven's built on boys and war
Hell is paved with whelps and whores

Mystics and Crabs

Tue, 13 Aug 2002 02:05:50 GMT

You didn't do anything wrong
but you didn't do anything right
You hardly deserve what you get
Because you hardly exit yourself

You're weaker than water
Softer than the wind
Pretend to be a lion
And hiding all your sin

A self-created guru
A dumbly hopeful gift
Oh, they didn't deserve you-
-or that's just what you wish

Floating in the ocean
Stealing people's shells
Drifting out in mankind
Judging people's hells

You wish you were Cancer's child
You wish you had it rough
You can hardly take your own life
And you think that makes you tough

But you're as firm as foam
Borrowing your strength
And smiling all the while
Thinking you're a saint

Ball

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 22:55:16 GMT

When did I first recognize?
When did it occur?
When did I first realize
How impotent we were?

I broke my hand
In a useless war
We lost our land
And left our lore

And nothing's left
And nothing's left
I can't accept
That nothing's left
But here we are
Asleep and adrift

Twelve points of light
Like fish in a bowl
The earth opened up
And swallowed them whole

And all is stone
And all is stone
I've given up
And lost the throne

Is this what happens
When heroes die?
Why didn't I realize?
Why didn't I recognize?

Lotus Eater

Mon, 29 Jul 2002 02:57:57 GMT

There's so much going on
And so much going down

It's getting a little tedious
I sleep to wardrums for a change of pace
Plato'd fall to his knees and cry
If he'd see what we've become

A pre-planned adolescence
And a package trip to Wonderland
It's all part of growing up
It's all part of blowing up
"Be free- be me!"

I miss our old philosophies
People playing dress up
Pretending to be
the very gypsies
That they killed off

I remember a grayer day
We could write and drink it all away
Now we scream for fame and call our names
And go insane
To absinthe veins
We rant and rave
for what we crave
We free the slaves
My aren't we brave,
My aren't we brave?

The knave of hearts, he had no tarts
But the knave of art, he had no heart

It's getting a little deafening in here
Oh it's getting a little deafening in here
All I hear is heartbeats
Why is it so deafening in here?

...

Il n'est pas la vie boheme. Il est l'apres-vie boheme

Astrology

Fri, 26 Jul 2002 22:30:59 GMT

If I told you
And pouted my lips
Would you even listen?

If I told you
You were raping me
Would you be so damned insistent?

So just sit there
Tracing circles in the water
Dry your hand off
when your done
Wipe your heart clean
when you've had your fun
We can't help our ripples
We can't help our ripples

Are the answers in the stars?
Oracles know everything
Can the wind tell you who you are?
if I told you this was rape...

So just sit there
With your big astrology book
Looking at pictures
Highlight the sections
All about love
You're lightyears from me
You're lightyears from maturity

If I told you
The dead can't talk
Would you try to stop?

Ground Control

Fri, 26 Jul 2002 04:13:56 GMT

Presence visible

Open the silos
Guidance system on
Security lights flicker

Have you ever seen a sky so black?

Sirens sound like mourning
Do it now
Why put off for tomorrow
what you can do today?

Successive stream of injuries
Black and blue and bleeding
Almost dead

Care to finish the job?

No?

Then I will.

You won't be spared
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
[ LOCKED ON TARGET ]
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
[ 5 ]
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
[ 4 ]
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
[ 3 ]
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
[ 2 ]
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
[ 1 ]
You won't be spared
You won't be spared
[ GOODBYE :) ]

Marquee Boy

Fri, 19 Jul 2002 05:45:30 GMT

Once there was a boy
who loved to see his name in lights
on monitors, and taxi cars
Just about everything

Once there was a boy
Who lived a quite operatic life
He'd sing, he'd dance, do anything
Just to shield his heart

What happens to a boy
A girl, a man, a universe
When we feel ashamed?
What happens to the shining stars
The moment that they fall?

What happened to Don Quixote?
Fighting windmills take it's toll?
What happened to Joan of Arc?
Hearing truth and feeling whole?

Why do we feel lonely
In a world so loud and wide?
What happened to expression,
Charity and pride?
What happened to the boy?
Did his marquee lights go dim?
What happened to that boy?
Oh, whatever happened to him?

The Human Service

Fri, 19 Jul 2002 05:43:51 GMT

walk away, walk away
leave me here in yesterday
come back when your feeling blue
I'm the one who's there for you
I'm the one who'll care for you

You say I understand you
I never reprimand you
Because with me your always right
You like the way I praise you
And how my heart displays you
A strange device to play with
But only when your always right
Is it friendship, or a contract?
Am I your friend, or just your contact?
Your quick release, your inner peace
Am I service when you feel nervous?
Is this cliche or my abuse?
The Human Service for your use

walk on me, walk on me
wipe your soiled feet on me
walk away once you feel clean
walk away when you don't bleed
cut away my power feed

You say I always hear you
But you never let me near you
Keep me two tone and in context
You like it when I treat you
Like I always need need you
You casually mislead me
You never want to need me
Or give me your respect
Am I your friend, or just your contact?
Your quick release, your inner peace
Am I service when you feel nervous?
Am I your own when your alone?
Am I your ear when you have fear?
Are you my knight when I'm not right?
Will you hear me when I call?
Am I your service, is that all?
The subject of passive abuse-
The Human Service for your use?

Every Other Day Martyr

Fri, 19 Jul 2002 05:42:13 GMT

Who you are is nothing
Who you scar is everything

What you feel is pointless
What you deal is everything

Put me on some pills
Turn my volume up
Wind my crank real tight
And watch me dance around

It's none for all
And all for dabbling
Loneliness, sleeping disorders
Broken hearts and shamanism

What you want is useless
What you hunt is oft forgotten

When you cry, it's noisy
When you die, now we're talking

Put me on a cross
But make sure it's not of God
I fight my inner demons
From the outside

"It's all about feeling"
Poet boys are mindless
As are princes on white horses
Where are the knights on motorcycles?

What you bleed is water
Who you feed is sacrifice

A Lion of Ganymede

Fri, 19 Jul 2002 05:41:11 GMT

Fight for what you believe in
Even if you don't
Escapist dancer twirling
You can't get away
You can't get away

Footholds in the fire
Can you strike the face of Eros?
Can you take a claw
From your Lord's lion?
If that is what's asked of you?

Crucifix upon your heart
Holy water on your shield
Defining moments
Memories
And by his stripes, repealed
And by his stripes, repealed

Fight for what you hope for
After you give up
Illusionary heroes
You must make a choice
You must make a choice
You can't get away
You must make a choice